Sunday, December 31, 2006

erm ... hehex... i officially announce tt i am going tu take care of her... i hope it will b everlasting ... though i nort sure..

i noe we belong tu different world... nort really common interest... nort in the same family bckground... n oso in academic results...

bt i will try my best ... tu shower her wif luv tt can b enuff tu replace the difference between us ...

bt i dun think i can actually... cuz i am nort a romantic person ... n those hu were close tu me will noe tt i'm as quiet as a mouse...hais ... bt den it's a new yr ... hehe... i will try my best... by hook or by crook... juz tu try tu make her hpy ... erm ... yawn ... tired... slp ... bb ... hpy new yr ... ...

Loveless on
7:59 AM

Saturday, December 30, 2006

anyway ... the 1st bad news... i kana whack on the thigh n elbow n kidney ... hais... bt basketball is always lik tt ... can't blame it ...

den ... tt cycle is always the same... ever since i k2... bt den when i was k2... i duno wad was being unfaithful ... bt now ... i noe wad it means... n i noe tt i can't b ... i am really v depressed lerhx...

i really wanna cry , scream , die ... suicide... shud i juz do tt??? where am i ??? in darkness???? wad am i doing ???? arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun even noe wad i'm typing... this blog is gonna b destroyed by me lerhx....

i really dunno wad tu do now ... wad shud i do ??? tell me !!!!!!!!!anyone ... plz...

i really v miserable ... wanna juz stab miself wif a pen knife... bt my sis is on my bed... she will stop me ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hais... wad shud i do ???anyone tell me plz.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so miserable........................................

y muz things always turn out lik tt?? is tt wad's written in my genes???

y can heaven b so unfair tu me??? one of my fren even say he jealous of me ... bt do any one of em ever noe my misery ?????noone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhh

y muz normal ppl be so gd ... den y muz i b so misery ??? wad kind of life r u , the god , giving tu me ...

i'm a legend killer... nort a heartbreak kid... i'm nort leslie ... i am myself... y am i always lik tt... is tt the reason y i have so lil fren ???

am i fated tu suicide ferr tt??? argh ... hais... no point shouting here... if i dun ever post again ... u readers r smart enuff tu noe y barhx...

Loveless on
3:13 AM

Friday, December 29, 2006

... learnt frm death note de puzzling skill ...


try figuring out wad it's tryin tu say ...:


"-u- LEt My wOr-l-d shine Juz l-i-k no other did"

doesn't the words sound wierd?
some capital n some isn't???
n some words wif - at either side of the letter???
guess em out ...hehex...

this is actually meant ferr someone v important tu me ... bt den she didn't seemed tu b hpy by the words i said... i admit i am being stupid... bt den it's becuz i was born lik tt... frm the day i was born till now... i dun make any 1st move... even in basketball n sparring... pl will b the one askin me if i wanna fight... n they will oso b the 1st one tu start the offense... so it's alrdy a habit in my life...

juz hope she could really understand me ... n hope when she could sucessfully solve the so called puzzle... she will feel joy ... nort sure... hope she will at least come n take a look ...

hmm...bye

bt anyway ... juz tu edit tu add two more sentence...

"i gnimraw ma esuoh gnimoc" this is an important msg ... tu tell her...

n this ... nxt one ... i dun think i gort say this 2 more den one person b4 ... tt person gave me sorrow ... n this gave me joy...so thus i will say in a v hpy mood =)

"eellojm ilwl u aestd whit me"??? n if the person hu noe i am refering tu her... plz reply in my tag board regarding this puzzle as it adds up tu a question

evry readers... though i noe it's lame ... bt den these puzzles make me rack my brain tu think of em ... so plz dun jeer bt encourage me ... thx ferr ur wonderful support...

Loveless on
7:47 PM

Thursday, December 28, 2006

2dae... went tu watch death note... omg... den an elegant girl come up tu me ... in front of the cinema... n her name is called...

Jobina...

she's an interesting person ... the 1st impression she give me is lik a princess or wad... dressed till the vry elegant type...

den... how shud i say ???

while watching the movie ... she's lik ... so adorable...hehex...nt sure hw 2 describe... hehex..

den i gort sick n she bought me medicine... so gd horx???... honoured i shud say ... hehex...den go hm lerhx... dunno y jomelle lik wadeva i say oso lik v wrong lik tt... hais... nort sure wad's going wrong wif the words i say ... mayb my mouth stinks barhx...

den come bck ... how dare tt fat @$$ beat my fren till red ... though my fren win ... bt he gt injured as well ... wen jie ... i will avenge ferr u de... hehhex... as well as let out all the anger inside me ... hais...

gonna show him wad is the pain of a kick which is too fast ferr him ...

hais... i really dunno whether i shud go ferr the countdown n the housewarming... countdown ... i will b a living lamp post... hus warming... i will juz b a miserable garbage bin ... hais

Loveless on
5:52 AM

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

yesterday ... when tt person play bball ... act pro ... i alrdy v disappointed n upset ... y muz he lik b still lik ...i admit he was the most long standing fren ... bt he's oso the most boastful one ... n vain .... y can't he change?

i teach him how tu fly, hw tu soar ... den when he could...he flies...

den thinkin he's the most perfect man in the whole world ... yar yar... he so perfect... basketball badminton all WIN me marhx... so gd... so CHARMING , HANDSOME n CUTE...fancy insulting he's own fren tu let ppl think tt he's the best among evryone around him ... it's nort jomelle nort fit enuff fer him ... u hear this rite... it's he nort gd enuff fer jomelle...

irritating freak ... go everyone hus oso ask em tu let him watch POpcoRN ... den he no com den still wanna watch ... bastard...

den think he really so handsome n cute... voice so sweet ... horny freak ...

think he bball so gd arhx???waaa... so gd arhx... waa waa waa

still dare say n insult me ....

n still say i treat girls as trash n treat him as garbage bin ... den wad bout him ???treat girls as sex toys ... getting pleasures outta em ... think he so damn greeat???? in my eye , he's juz nothin bt a low down freak ...

say till wrestling so gd... in the end oso lose ... still cry ... dunno hu cry n tap out within 20 seconds...

so in the end i gort juz two words ferr him ... "U SUCK"

u wun b my fren fereva... cuz u dun treasure frenship lik a normal human being ...

u r nort a son of bytch cuz ur mum is nort a bytch bt den u urself... it's nort ur genes which makes u lik tt ... bt urself hu brought urself up lik tt ... uncivilised freak ...

i wonder hw u could become a sucessful person wif vulgarities comin frm ur mouth evry less den ten sentence... i nvr look down on ppl as much as hw i look down on u now... all talk no action ... i wonder hw do i eva had a disciple lik u ... if u r still a man...turn over a new leaf... if nort... dun go around begging ferr ppl tu b ur fren ...

den go north point ... one guy wanna add fire tu oil... den my mum oso ... argh ... felt lik hitting someone ... bt nt sure hu ...

den went bck hm ... hais ... is there really noone in this world hu care bout my existence???den wad isit ferr??

den the hus warming thingy .... they juz ask me tu go juz tu clear the food fer them ???doesn't tt make me a garbage bin ????

den i'm gonna b degraded tu a rubbish chute... argh... wad am i doing???bt den i gort a feeling tat i shud go ... bt i gort tt feeling tt i'm nort invited juz tu have fun ... bt tu b a garbage bin or smth lik tt ... am i juz lik tt???!!!!

Loveless on
10:06 PM

hais... leslie they all laugh at me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hw could they... curse me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arhx.....


nth else tu rite ... except... noone care if i die tuday...=(

den die lorhx....stupid!!!!!

argh!!!


hais...(dead)



lol lol lol ....


i wanna die lerhx.....body rotting...................n she n her dar dar is so lovin =)

den leslie n jomelle too ... though they r quarreling...

wanna fight wif anyone tu test my trademark...if tt person dun die... at least bleed please...hais...thirst of blood lerhx...bbb

Loveless on
9:03 AM

Sunday, December 24, 2006

today went tu work ... leslie lik insisting tt i muz treat him to bubble tea... bt can't he c tt i'm desperately trying tu save money ferr 28 december???

it's lik i checked tt i nid to spend lik 40+ dollars... n i tryin wif evry efforts to save em up ... so please dun let me spend so much lerhx !!!!

i nid to save on tt chance...

den gary ... can't he c tt i did packed the counter???walao ... i took initiative too packk... den he lik tt say ... den i dun pack it would have turned a junk place lerhx...

den brian took foto of me playin games yesteday ... still nort sure he's motive... tryin to say tt i nv do my job ???

dunno ...

hais ... den she ... omg... i now really falling deep ... jealous the whole day juz over tt small thing ... omg... hw can i b lik tt???? omg... 1st time ever jealous of ppl ... felt v sour in my heart... sobx,,,

wish evrything pass liik the wind blows... hais... gtg lerhx... bb

i wil wait till 21 june ...leslie muz buck up too ... i noe u work hard this time lerhx... bt stop singing on buses can ??? stop askin me to treat u ???n oso ... dun cheat on her feelings if u sucessfully go in relationship wif her...

Loveless on
9:43 AM

Friday, December 22, 2006

frm tt time till now is lik 4 yrs lerhx ... or at least 3 yrs plus lerhx ... bt den ... hais ... my mum was rite... i can't have smth n show it tu him ... when ever i do tt ... by hook or crook ... he will wanna gt it frm me ...

tuday i go work den i ask him if he gort feeling ferr huimin cuz he lik v lik tu tok 2 her lik tt... den he say tt" y lei ... if i lik den wad will u do ?"

i v frightened ... n felt threatened... it's lik a time bomb ... going tu bomb at anytime ... hais ... adding to tt ... another one wif the same threatening tone... alvin ... say "u went tu KFC rite???"

wqlao ... i lik wanna crack my brain lerhx...

den it's lik ... hais ... both things troubled me alort today ... n regarding the borrowing of money ... i nort sure... he did returned me $1 ... bt den he say tt he will return me the nxt day or if nort the day after nxt... i had enuff... hearing tt ferr hundreds n thousands of times... n in the end ... nv getting even 10% of those amounts bck ...

i can't belive it ... if this carry on ... he will gt more $$$ frm me den my ex gt frm me de lorhx ...

hais ... hw could i ever had this kind of fren ... till the time i wake up is alrdy too late... den when he exaggerates the things he say ... really v annoying... nort slpin three days cuz of her... den y wasn't he answering my fone???

den he sing oso sing so loud in bus evrytime ... forcing me tu watch tt ... n forcing me to blast my handfone de songs in bus ... den always sing so loud in the bus ... walao ... i v disgraced de ...

den still say he cute so loud in the kfc ... i can't help lerhx ... evryone lookin at us ... especially the actions he do when he sayin tt he is cute... those hands sticking out ... lik it always does... omg... he attract so many "attention "

so i wondering if they will b a gd matching couples... juz hope he dun spend her money or take advantage of her... n even worse... two time her ... or as a fren ... i will b angry wif him n break another teeth ferr him ... den become two broken teeth ...

sry ferr offeinding any readers... bt i really can't stand it anymore... bb

Loveless on
6:32 AM

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

went there ... so starving ... so hungry ... cuz of tt pathetic deck ... hais...

den i can't do anything sia ... at there slack de... den go 2 play bball ... whole body v smelly...

omg...

den hais... she nv sms me... n nv reply me ... i was real real disappointed n sad... hais...

think i will b buying cena's deck ... bt at a lata date... hais...


den "she" nv online lerx... hais... nort sure wad happened... even when i call her , she nv ans me ... omg... muz b really mad at me ...hais ... bt den again ... she has a prince ferr her lerhx... hope he treat her v v nice den ... den they can last ferreva...hais

when i've alrdy chnged... there's alrdy no point of turning back ... =(

Loveless on
5:43 AM

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

2dae went 2 work ... den omg... revolution de deck come out lerhx ... omg ... wad shud i do ??? omg... triple h or john cena... or rey ???

omg omg...hais...

den it's lik i can't make any gd decision ...

hope someone can make ferr me ...

anyway ... wish jomelle can really understand me ... cuz ... it's really guilty tu face her when she nv find her hapiness... tt's y i kip pushing leslie to her den so tt she have hapiness... den leslie so shuai ... y nort arhx...

den a "she"...hais... i nort sure hw 2 say ... if i really have a genie ... n i can ask ferr 3 wish ... i sure ask ferr one day wif "her"... steading wif "her" ferr tt one day ... or at least treat each other as stead juz ferr tt day ... n one hug fm "her"... omg... if i can really realise tt wish ... i can juz die without regrets liao ... really juz die down lerhx...

hais ... bt too bad ... alladin dun free de genie to the human world... if nort hu noes???the nxt moment i might alrdy gt the three wish done...

hmm... think i gtg lerhx... bb... she was probably rite... when i had a chance... i didn't grab hold of tt chance... n when i lost tt chance alrdy ... there's no hope even if i chnged...

"wo yi bian lerhx ... dan ye yi jing mei you ji hui le"Jay Chou said in Tui Hou de MV... this sentence.... might have fit me juz well ...

Loveless on
9:24 AM

Monday, December 18, 2006

it's lik ... did nort mean it ... hais ... her blog ... she says tt my blog kip sayin i'm jealous ... alright ... den i shud say tt i'm hpy ferr her den ... if she c this den she will b hpy till on cloud nine barhx...

hais ...

nth greeat happening tu me these few weeks...

juz nw desiree tok 2 mi ... den she block me ... wad the hell ... bt den the jomelle de housewarming , this week de outing ... think i wun b going barhx ... faking a stomachache or all tt...

the more i gt involved in those... the more deeper i sink ...

I REALLY V TIRED LERHX !!!!!!

even robots nid to recharge their battery after usage n will overheat de... so will human brains... though i belive i have iq of more den 120 , tt will still burst one day de ... wish i can leave the world n ease the job of my brain ...

i really dunno wad 2 do nw ... so sick n tired of evrything
head oso kana headache till v often ... n sensitive to heat lerhx...

if i will 2 continue waiting ... nt sure wad will become of me ... =(

anyway ... part 2 ... 5 min after i finish part one ... which is the line b4 this ...

juz nw saw he's blog accidentaly... sry if anyone could find out ... bt den i finally noe y she luv him so much lerhx barhx ... think i noe myself which path i shud choose lerhx... they can really make v loving de couple ... muz zhong xin zhu fu ta men ... hehx... =)

Loveless on
6:19 AM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

today super sian also ... bt den the way the time flies is quite super duper ... cuz i ran out of my work place ferr lik at least 2 times ... plus i was assigned this assigned tt ... so time juz past ... lik tt..

den was sent by gary up there... dun find a nid of me up there too ... hais ... nth 2 do ... wanna sms her bt she dun seemed to b replying ... hais ... wad in the hell is going on ... played ultraman in the afternoon ... quite fun ... was one of the best ... num 5 top player barhx...haha...

den it's lik ... hais... played initial d ... den put TYLHM... if u r me ... u sure noe waad it means ... bt nvm ... since u aren't me ... den let's arouse ur curiosity n guess... hais...

if i nort wrong... desiree nw nort bothering any of my frens lerhx ... which is gd...

den... hais...really dunno hw 2 describe my feeling...how i hated myself ...

wad in the heaven or hell am i doing ... hais ... n does she treat me lik a talkin pet to substitute him ???hais....

really nort sure wad i shud do ...

mayb i shud juz stand there ignore her n do nth bout her... hais ...anyway ... she has her games tu accompany her lerhx marhx... tt's alrdy quite enuff... sm sorta game which she's superb in ... nt sure wad was tt..

hais... i shudn't have let go of my hand ... n nw tt i let go ... i tried to gt tt bck ... it's more difficult as to gt it b4 i even own it ... hais ...

things which shatters r hard to b mended ... gtg lerhx ... bb ... roxas ... sora...kairi... smth lik tt...cloud rox most,,, bb...

Loveless on
8:53 AM

Saturday, December 16, 2006

i'm bck n betta den ever... hehx... nw currently workin ... think there's no reader n oso posts ferr lik months???sry ... cuz i regain my older blog ... hehe.x... bt nw i will voice my thoughts here barhx... bt nth politic u can assure ...

hehx...

lol ... ohh...den...nw lik hated n irritated by loadx of ppl ... nt sure if it's true... bt it seemed true ... cuz ... hais ... dunno ...

the more i alone , the more i thirst of blood... yesterday still lack of tt few pathetic blood...

den workin there de colleagues oso ... the relationship established wasn't tt great...

hais ... "she" n him lik v loving... bt she ssay it isn't ... nt sure bout the whole thing barhx... think they will last longer n longer...

n my wounds will probably b widen n widen ... jkjk larhx... i yesterday juz learnt L's language...hehx...

bt den nw they lik cold war... den nth else i can do except chatting wif her ... hehx...

i feel so miserable deep inside... n noone noes... h a n d have a nice day ... better gt going... bb... n tell ya smth hear...desiree han frm chij is juz a fatty hu acts chio ... nort a gd person ... initially ... i find her looks pathetic ... thought she kind hearted... bt she's juz another irritating freak hu think she v pretty ...

if u find this wad eva , tell me ... thru tag board

Loveless on
6:48 PM